Yep, I'm back. Just like a bad penny. Just like the disease of alcoholism for many of us.
My last entry was nearly 2 years ago. Since then, Al's been to detox (2x), rehab (28 days, in-patient), and had almost of year of wonderful, glorious sobriety (at least it was wonderful, glorious to me. To him? Not so much.) He also had a marvelous sponsor.
Then it started again. The drinking. The lies. The cover-ups.
And the separation. That's only a couple days old.
At first, I was very comfortable with the decision. Now, thinking about it brings me to tears. I don't know if I'm making the right decision.
What might happen? Before I can speculate, I need to tell you what has happened. Al was sober from around August 1, 2015 until (I think) June-ish, 2016. He started drinking, at times heavily, would quit (or try to) for awhile, then back again drinking.
In the meantime, I started a new phase of my career, leaving the business (for the most part) that we'd spent the past 3.5 years building. That was planned: get the business going, then I'd go back to my other career.
Last week, after I discovered that he had been drinking, he admitted it. Then he dropped the bombshell: He would continue to drink, he could be a responsible drinker, and all would be good.
Not.
I'm sick and devastated.
